Am I not worthy of patience after I was patient for so many times

Am I not worthy of patience after I was patient for so many times. Does it not worth it to ight for? Am I not allowed to ask for help? I caot believe that it is too much to handle. 

change!!! (blogfa.com)

داره کم کم به اینجام میرسه!!! (blogfa.com)

دل (blogfa.com)

خيلي بده (blogfa.com)

ساده مثل دروغ (blogfa.com)

چيه؟؟ (blogfa.com)

دل | درد (blogfa.com)

Let it go (blogfa.com)

ناتواني (blogfa.com)

تو هیجوقت دروغگوی خوبی نبودی (blogfa.com)

دل | فروردین ۱۳۹۹ (blogfa.com)

تفاوت (blogfa.com)

دل | بهمن ۱۳۹۹ (blogfa.com)

دل | خرداد ۱۴۰۰ (blogfa.com)

PS: I know there is millions of others, which are exactly the opposites. No one can take those away from me, but for now I want to get rid of the aboves forever.